handwritten on November 13, 2021
My husband and I
had a really deep reflection hour last night
just talking about life
and the past nine years together
Nine years goes by so very fast
and when you look back and realize just
how much has happened
how different we are now than when we first met
and how many triumphs and roadblocks
failures and successes we have had together
and separately
it's astonishing..
life goes by so quickly
and I think it's so important to have those moments where you stop and just
remember
the years before and how they have all contributed to
who you are now
as a living being
I don't think gratitude can happen
without reflection
and I don't think we reflect nearly
enough
because all of us...
no...
handwritten on October 24, 2021
Have you ever thought about the little things
that have allowed you to arrive at the bigger moments?
Like when was that time you can remember where you did something or went out of your way to talk to someone
and then those small steps built into trust and then a friendship
or when you watched something create something tiny
and watched them make that step to arrive in a new place
which then created an unexpected pivot of ideas
and yet another unexpected continuation of something you had never really thought about
in that way in that time
Our souls grow from the small steps
the times where we moved fear to the back of our minds
and decided to travel outside the status quo
Essentially every...
handwritten on October 9, 2021
My husband
and his endless patient calls
the thousands of terms
and vocabulary he uses
and knows
the kindness he exhibits
and the questions he asks
the beeping isn't an annoyance
like some people would think
beep
because it becomes intertwined
in the memories and laughs
beep beep
and interrupted sleep we've
shared
like endless syncopated
beep
eighth notes we sing those beeps
into our sleep
unwraveled in our dreams
but a reminder to me what an adventure it has been
nine years roll by so very quickly
and in between the beeps
I've loved it
all
in awe I will remain
of those syncopated beeps
and the man who seems to handle it
all
for you...absolutely anything.
BEEEEP
handwritten on October 2, 2021
When autumn comes around
it reimagines everything around it
the air that shapes us
is different
and the people
are different too
something about pools of hot coffee
admist a blanket of crisp
hope
awakens our
soul so that we
see the ordinary as
extraordinary
in all the days
not just one
handwritten on September 11, 2021
It takes a leap of faith
to really move forward in any physical or psychological capacity
This morning I was doing my best to document (in photos)
what it was like to watch someone leave home to
pursue dreams far far away
and there was this moment when my father-in-law
insisted on making me coffee
where I was sipping and he was talking
and I was sipping some more
and his words were too profound not to record
and so he said
"You know..my patients always come and see me and say
how could you let your daughter go so far away? UCLA is so far.
My gosh. I don't know how you are doing it."
and he said his reply is always the same...
"I came to the Untied States with no money and no language
far...
