handwritten on October 9, 2021
My husband
and his endless patient calls
the thousands of terms
and vocabulary he uses
and knows
the kindness he exhibits
and the questions he asks
the beeping isn't an annoyance
like some people would think
beep
because it becomes intertwined
in the memories and laughs
beep beep
and interrupted sleep we've
shared
like endless syncopated
beep
eighth notes we sing those beeps
into our sleep
unwraveled in our dreams
but a reminder to me what an adventure it has been
nine years roll by so very quickly
and in between the beeps
I've loved it
all
in awe I will remain
of those syncopated beeps
and the man who seems to handle it
all
for you...absolutely anything.
BEEEEP
handwritten on October 2, 2021
When autumn comes around
it reimagines everything around it
the air that shapes us
is different
and the people
are different too
something about pools of hot coffee
admist a blanket of crisp
hope
awakens our
soul so that we
see the ordinary as
extraordinary
in all the days
not just one
handwritten on September 11, 2021
It takes a leap of faith
to really move forward in any physical or psychological capacity
This morning I was doing my best to document (in photos)
what it was like to watch someone leave home to
pursue dreams far far away
and there was this moment when my father-in-law
insisted on making me coffee
where I was sipping and he was talking
and I was sipping some more
and his words were too profound not to record
and so he said
"You know..my patients always come and see me and say
how could you let your daughter go so far away? UCLA is so far.
My gosh. I don't know how you are doing it."
and he said his reply is always the same...
"I came to the Untied States with no money and no language
far...
handwritten on September 7, 2021
Ironically this is more of a book review than an actual journal entry.
But every now and again we read this piece of literature that we hope becomes our guide our reference
for the long term- for life
and this book did it for me
There were so many moments in this book where it becomes clear that our life's purpose is the actual journey and not an event or an accomplishment. It's the way our identities shift and change over time as we grapple with life's questions and things that organically happen some foreseen and some unforseen.
As humans (myself included in this) we always seek to find the answers
but what is purposeful in one season of life may become less purposeful when a new...
handwritten on September 1, 2021
Today was like time traveling
back to the beginning when
my little sneakers scuffled across the shiny floor
of my mom's brand new waxed classroom
and I watched her magic
her captivating stories that made everyone listen
and the scavenger hunts she created midday to
intrigue her students
the giggles she never snuffed out
and the time she took to appreciate the
artistic abilities and detailed creations
of every single child
sometimes a little rainstorm slows time
and brings us back to the beginning
to make us see again the reason
the real reason
why we decided to
become who we wanted to become
and be who we wanted to be
in the rain magic was found
in the most unlikely of
places
through the...
