This was probably one of the most relaxing Christmas Days I have ever experienced. A peaceful slumber mixed with gift opening and Chinese potato pancakes, coffee and piano and viola duets, a Christmas run soaking in the sun of the day and then a gathering at our third family's house with good company and conversation. 

I think the best way to put 2019 in perspective is this idea that everyday should contain the excitement of Christmas. That energy you feel on Christmas should be felt every day of the year. Those new ideas that burst through your soul on Christmas should reveal themselves, too. And- it's the one day where if you are feeling a little lost, it is the hope that you realize everyone is. Christmas is the season for the feelings of finding oneself surrounded by those who love you the most. And so those branches and endless forest of possibilities seem a bit more manageable-a bit more beautiful-a bit more exciting. When you look at your feelings of lost as the lights on the tree that can comb through the branches in every direction imaginable. that is whimsy at its finest. 

I've mentioned this before but this is the Christmas I have felt most alive, most content, most thankful, most blessed, most filled with faith, most excited, most confused but also at ease, most spirited and filled with joy than I have in a long time. And I owe this to a renewed sense of spirituality and an understanding that there is no point in sweating the small things. That tiny worries can plague our very existence and so it is best just to be. Instead of thinking so very hard and wishing that things would change-create change. Instead of trying to always make others happy remember that they must find happiness within themselves. That dreams are never impossible, that the silliness of an idea is sometimes where we find our best ideas, that momentum is everything but so are small breaks here and there. 

If you think of every day as just that One Special Day, then no purpose is ever too small, no wish ever too silly and waking up every day is indeed the most beautiful blessing you could ever be gifted. I am filled with overwhelming gratitude for another magical Christmas with family, with my grandparents and with a love so deep-every day is a one special day filled with sunlight.